Mad
Posted on: Sunday, October 14, 2007
Posted at: 8:22 AM
Posted at: 8:22 AM
Damn it!
Damn it!
Damn it!
Got scolded last night just for not helping my dad do something. What the hell is going on in this world?! And freaking hell, it's not like I did not want to help him. I just happened to be doing something else!
Damn it!
Damn it!
Damn it!
And he insulted me like I am not a human. Like I am not part of the family. Like I am not HIS son. I am 15 years old already! And I am even gonna have my IC soon! Freaking hell!
Fine then. Since he said even a stray dog is better than me, fine. Let it be. I shall be a person with low self-esteem fron now onwards.
No one will ever treat me as a human.
No one will ever like me.
No one will treat me as a friend.
NO ONE will ever love me.
I am an asshole.
I am a idiot.
I am a noob.
I am stupid.
I am silly.
I am dumb.
I am worse than a dog.
I am a sucker.
I am a GONER.
Since I was that difficult to raise, why didn't he dump me in the rubbish bin the moment I was born? And if I am that irresponsible, how the f-king hell did I get into this school and achieve whatever I had in NPCC?
No one can ever understand me. NO ONE. That's cos none of you will ever have a father that runs this home like a military camp, a father who thinks violence is the only way to make us behave, a father who even beats his wife and children up, a father who will rather spend time with his friends drinking than accompanying us at home, a father who allow no room for negotiation for whatever stuff and a father who always think he is the only person who is right in this world.
And no one will ever be there for me. No one will be able to see the tears I let out last night. NO ONE.
Damn it!
Damn it!
Got scolded last night just for not helping my dad do something. What the hell is going on in this world?! And freaking hell, it's not like I did not want to help him. I just happened to be doing something else!
Damn it!
Damn it!
Damn it!
And he insulted me like I am not a human. Like I am not part of the family. Like I am not HIS son. I am 15 years old already! And I am even gonna have my IC soon! Freaking hell!
Fine then. Since he said even a stray dog is better than me, fine. Let it be. I shall be a person with low self-esteem fron now onwards.
No one will ever treat me as a human.
No one will ever like me.
No one will treat me as a friend.
NO ONE will ever love me.
I am an asshole.
I am a idiot.
I am a noob.
I am stupid.
I am silly.
I am dumb.
I am worse than a dog.
I am a sucker.
I am a GONER.
Since I was that difficult to raise, why didn't he dump me in the rubbish bin the moment I was born? And if I am that irresponsible, how the f-king hell did I get into this school and achieve whatever I had in NPCC?
No one can ever understand me. NO ONE. That's cos none of you will ever have a father that runs this home like a military camp, a father who thinks violence is the only way to make us behave, a father who even beats his wife and children up, a father who will rather spend time with his friends drinking than accompanying us at home, a father who allow no room for negotiation for whatever stuff and a father who always think he is the only person who is right in this world.
And no one will ever be there for me. No one will be able to see the tears I let out last night. NO ONE.